i'm feeling...

good right now! all my plans got kind of cancelled this weekend and i'm excited/overwhelmed by all the freedom i have to just focus on having a nice time doing whatever i want? idk i've been overwhelmed by a lot of background tasks i've wanted to accomplish, from like hanging up cute lights to just cleaning the floors regularly. my boyfriend really came through this week and did the work of 2 people + the fun lights as an extra and i don't have to feel like i should use my new free time to clean or anything which feels great. and i've been telling everyone for some time now that i'm having a hard time doing anything for myself lately, like working on any kind of creative project or playing video games, watching movies. i need to start making time like this for myself instead of trying to do as much as i can every day... it genuinely feels weird to just chill and do whatever i want solo.

watching/playing/reading...

i'm watching The Curse and it might be the best show i've ever watched. it is kind of a mash of a lot of things i already love, like nathan fielder, benny safdie, and oneohtrix point never

i also just watched Eighth Grade and it was pretty phenominal. i found it really comforting to my inner child

and doing...

the difficult process of coming off a new ood medication that wasn't working well for me